appealing

The Maynard
Spring 2020

Diane Tucker
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The Star

Backstage hallway, late.
I waited for my chorus boy
romance, his brown arms.

The silence after a show
is a black silence, a threat
that spreads like oil.

Into my wait, wandered
the star, a man too beautiful
to risk even looking at.

He stood in front of me.
Looked into the boys’
dressing room, back at me.

In his caressing baritone
he said something like It’s
hard to wait. It’s hard to love.

Then he kissed my cheek.
Tenderly, I thought then.
Now, I think, with pity too.

Years later the star died
of what his parents insisted
was pneumonia.

I wish I’d grabbed him
those years ago and held on.
Answered his pity with pity,

admitted our beauty couldn’t
save us from that silent hallway,
from its long emptiness.